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too late for the other side
caught in a change
25 to life
too late for the other side
caught in a change
25 to life
too late
(i cant keep chasing you)
(your takin my life away)
caught in a change
25 to life

[verse 1]

i dont think she understands the sacrifices that i made
maybe if this bitch had acted right i wouldve stayed
but ive already wasted over half of my life i wouldve laid
down and died for you i no longer cry for you
no more pain, bitch you
took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
into the dirt i can no longer stand it
now my respect i demand it
imma take control of this relationship
command it, and imma be the boss of you now goddamnit
and what i mean is that i will no longer let you control me
so you better hear me out, this much you owe me
i gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you, while ive stayed
faithful all the way this is how i fucking get repaid
look at how i dress fucking baggy sweats, go to work a mess
always in a rush to get back to you, i aint heard you yet
not even once say you apreciate me i deserve respect
ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
and i know that if i end this ill no longer have nothing left
but you keep treating me like a staircase its time to fucking step
and i wont be coming back so dont hold your fucking breath
you know what youve done no need to go in depth
i told you, youd be sorry if i fucking left
id laugh while you wept
hows it feel now, yeah, funny aint it, you neglected me
did me a favor and my spirit free youve said
but a special place for you in my heart i have kept
its unfortunate but its,


too late for the other side
caught in a change
25 to life
too late for the other side
caught in a change
25 to life

[verse 2]

i feel like when i bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
cause that aint good enough you expect me to fold myself in half
til i snap
dont think im loyal
all i do is rap
i can not moonlight on the side
i have no life outside of that
dont i give you enough of my time
you dont think so do you
jealous when i spend time with the girls
why im married to you still, man i dont know
but tonight im serving you with papers
im divoricing you
go marry someone else and make em famous
and take away there freedom like you did to me
treat em like you dont need them and they aint worthy of you
feed em the same s**t you made me eat
im moving on forget you oh,
now im special, i aint felt special when i was with you
all i ever felt was this
imprisoned by a selfish b**ch
chew me up and spit me out
i fell for this so many times
its ridiculus
and still i stick with this
but in my sickness an addiction, you're addictive as they get,
evil as they come vindictive as they make em
my friends keep asking why i cant just walk away
im addicted
to the pain, the stress, the drama
im to this shit, so i guess imma mess
cursed and blessed
but this time imma
aint changing my mind
im climbing out this abyss
you screaming as i walk out that ill be missed
but when you spoke to people who meant the most to you
you left me off your list
fuck you hip-hop
im leaving you, my life sentence is served bitch
and its just

(no subject)

Josh Lindsay “In the end we will conserve only what we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught.”

(no subject)

today hit me like a ton of fucking bricks.
my dad called me and told me he couldnt pick me up from work since my car got broke down, so i had to find a ride to my house. he wouldnt tell me why, but when i called my mom to see if she could pick me up, she told me.
my brother overdosed on alot of drugs yesterday, theyre not sure what yet, but they think xanax, vicodin and methadone and is in the hospital in the ICU. my dad found him unconscious and not breathing. right now his kidneys are in failure, hes not breathing on his own, hes got brain damage and theyre not sure if hes going to wake up.
my mom said that she doesnt want me to see him, but if he hasnt woken up in two days, im going to see him. my heart is broken for him. he is my only brother, and although we've grown apart, we still grew up together and shared many good times.
im praying for you alex. may god be with you :(

in your arms is where i want to live and die

i think thats what wrong with the world. no one says what they feel

they hold it inside

they're sad, but they don't cry

they're happy but they don't sing
or dance

they're angry but they don't scream

cause if they do, they'll feel ashamed. and thats the

feeling in the world. so everyone

walks with their heads


noone sees how beautiful the sky

- jim morrison
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im in love with this song!!

things have been GREAT lately.
in 4 weeks, im moving out with my boyfriend after he comes back from california on a mission for the army.6

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everythings changing now that people are forgeting who they are.
everyone wants to fit in, and when they finally get the chance to,
they leave the people they care about for people that don't care about them

the truely painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said, and never explained.

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